Post Ayahuasca: Integration and Letting Go

After my first experience with Ayahuasca in Costa Rica back in 2021, something shifted in me. Drastically. Deeply. Irreversibly.

Ayahuasca didn’t just show me my shadows or break down my ego — it also whispered a quiet truth into my system: you are allowed to let go. That message didn’t just stay in the jungle. It followed me home, and it reshaped the way I saw myself, my life, and my work.

The Life I Had Built

I’ve been self-employed for most of my adult life. It gave me freedom, excitement, and independence — but also an endless to-do list, constant responsibility, and the pressure of keeping the machine running. At the time, I owned both a restaurant and a cocktail bar in Copenhagen. On paper, things were going well. I made good money. I was “successful.”

But the truth? I was drained. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. And I was sad — not because I didn’t work hard or achieve enough, but because I was living a life out of alignment with my deeper truth.

What I experienced in those ceremonies showed me how small and fragile the illusion of control really is. I experienced what people call “ego death” — and in that collapse, something new emerged: peace. A knowing that I didn’t have to hold on so tightly anymore. That the stress, the exhaustion, and the sadness were signs — and I had been ignoring them for too long.

The Decision I Never Thought I’d Make

Coming home after that experience, I felt different. I wasn’t the same Thomas. Something had softened. Something had woken up. And I knew, without a doubt, that I had to let go of what no longer served me.

So I sold both my businesses — with no plan for what came next. And to my own surprise… I wasn’t scared. Not like before. It was as if the decision had already been made for me. I just had to follow through.

That’s what integration is. It’s not just journaling or eating clean after a ceremony. It’s listening. It’s taking action. It’s allowing what the medicine showed you to ripple into your life — your relationships, your decisions, your future.

Integration Is the Real Journey

If you’ve ever experienced deep inner work — whether through Ayahuasca, breathwork, therapy, or another path — then you know: the real work begins afterwards.

Integration means taking what you’ve seen and letting it change how you live.

For me, it meant walking away from something that looked “successful,” but felt empty.
It meant risking the unknown, trusting my intuition, and honoring what I had learned.

And it was the best decision I’ve made in a long time.

This post is not a recommendation to take psychedelics. It’s a reflection. A lived experience. A chapter in my journey.

If you’re feeling stuck, exhausted, or off-track — this is your reminder:
Letting go of what drains you may be the first step toward everything you’re longing for.

Trust that you’ll land.
Trust that what’s next will meet you where you are.
Trust yourself.